Heelde's Blog
This life is mine
I live solo. No partner, no children, no fixed home. At 55, I travel through Europe with my tent, my laptop, and a heart full of curiosity. Not because I drifted into this life by default, but because I chose it – again and again. I crafted a life that fits me. A life that breathes...
There comes a moment when the longing for love no longer feels gentle or inviting, but becomes a hunger that leaves you empty. A moment when you notice yourself reaching out with your whole being toward someone, while a part of you actually wants to pull away. When you keep trying to receive somethi...
Maybe this sounds familiar: you dream, you meditate deeply, or you take ayahuasca or another plant medicine – and wherever you go, you always seem to end up in a strange, heavy place. Not loving. Not warm. No open skies, no welcoming guide. Instead, a kind of grey, uncomfortable atmosphere. Sometime...
How to Stop Doubting Yourself and Build Self-Confidence
Doubt is a silent force that can creep into your daily life in the smallest moments. It’s that inner voice that makes you hesitate: am I good enough? Can I really do this? What if I fail?
For some, self-doubt is a fleeting thought, but when i...
Many people feel intuitively that they’re being guided by spirit guides, but still wonder how to deepen that connection. Guides are energetic beings that support us on our path, but their presence is often subtle. They don’t always communicate in ways we immediately recognize—which can lead to d
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Soul traumas are deep emotional or energetic wounds that your soul carries, sometimes across multiple lifetimes. They arise from intense experiences such as loss, rejection, powerlessness, or extreme fear. These experiences leave an energetic imprint that unconsciously influences how you navigate li...
There are moments when someone genuinely asks, "How are you really doing?" or "You can talk to me, you know." Well-intended, maybe even loving, yet instead of feeling invited to share, something else happens. You freeze. You shut down. All the words that may have been swirling in your mind just a mo...
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There is a quiet pain that many of us know but rarely speak about. It’s the pain of not being heard—the disappointment that settles in your heart when you realize that someone isn’t truly listening. They don’t take the time to pause, to be present, to ask deeper questions. They don’t make space f...
Many people struggle with receiving. They brush off compliments, feel guilty when accepting help, or believe they must always give before they can receive. This often comes from the belief that receiving is the same as taking—but this is a misunderstanding. Receiving happens naturally and effortless...
